O what a year

One year ago this weekend my wife and I came home for thanksgiving and by the time we went back to where we were living (as indentured servants) we knew we would be moving back home. As my dad says, "No good dead goes unpunished". And it didn't we moved well away from where we planned to be and stopped our lives completely in order to help family that had portrayed themselves as needing help. This was far from the truth really they just needed someone to lord over and have kiss their asses. After leaving the lady of the house (my mother) called and cursed me for being selfish and leaving her. Now this is the same woman who left my father when I was 3ish and has never paid a lick of child support in my life, also the same person we moved down there to help. After she apologized i tried to play nice even though i knew she didn't mean it. The joke of it all is is that everything that she has done to me in my life she says it happened to her. then she has the gumption to tell people about this great life we had together that is 100% fake and that she has just made up. When i called her on this she said that is the way it felt to her. So here we are and next weekend is my birthday it will have been 1 year since I have seen my so-called family and I am completely okay with it. My mom and her family have been within a 40 minute drive of where i live twice but said it was to far out of the way and they didn't have time to come by they also have visited other family that is 3 hours from their house at least once every two months in the last year. So i didn't call them on thanksgiving because my life is just easier when i don't talk to them. I am blessed to have an awesome wife with a huge heart who has made me try to make it work with them for years but now she under stands. I was raised by the most awesome father a person could have and he still is my best friend besides my wife. My wife's parents are awesome in laws and i could not ask for a better relationship than what we have. With all this family that I have here where I live it is not worth my time or mental capacity to worry about what people, whose only reason for talking to me is to hold stuff over my head, are doing. I love and appreciate my wife, I love and appreciate my dad and step mom and I love and appreciate my in-laws. More than that I can only thank Jesus for the lessons he has taught me and my family through these trials. Thank you Lord for giving me such an amazing support system.........


P.S. I hope the lost family I have written about reads this and reflects. I will not answer when you call, I will not call you back and if you harass my wife we will talk face to face



Good night neverland.

Damn

Let me start by saying something and then I will get into what has happened. I have never been unfaithful to my wife and that is not what this is about I have lived and will live every day of our marriage (life) as a faithful husband...

I messed up, I am generally a person of logic and when I'm not my wife brings me back to the real world. The second part of that is the trick, you see. All things in my life I consult my wife except this time. I did not mean to diminish her role in our relationship, hell she's the brains of the operation so in no way would I want to take anything from her. On the morning of July 2nd I made a decision without her and it hurt her and in that it hurt me. I didn't mean to hurt her, i didn't mean to leave her out I just made a call feeling as if she would be expecting me to make it. Boy was I wrong. I came home and told her that I had quit my job with no warning and waamo! Something I wasn't expecting happened. I saw my reflection shrink in my wife's eyes, I saw her think less of me than she had ever thought of anything sense we have been married. I instantly realized she was shutting down and locking me out of her mind. She didn't care about the job it was the fact that I had left her out of such a big decision for our family ( currently just 2 of us but one day more ). How could I have done that? Why would I not consult her? What in the hell is going on in my mind? All of these things instantly entered my mind. I could see in her eyes that I had damaged the trust that I have worked our whole marriage to gain and protect and I hated myself for it. She always has looked at me like I was a victorious night riding home from battle in shinning armor on a bad ass horse and now in one stroke ( of my own) I had been demoted to the poor bastard that had to push the cart with the dead people on it. There is nothing I can say that can tell her how I feel. There is nothing I can do to undo what is done. But let me tell you this I will be looked at as that night again, I will be victorious in life (battle) and I will treat her like a queen as she deserves to be treated. She is the most important person in this world to me. I would die without hesitation for if need be. This woman is the love of my life and she can do no wrong in my eyes. I love her with all of my heart and will work till my the day I die trying to never see that look again on her face.

Wish me luck never land.

What Idiot put all of the idiots in charge?

I have wanted to do this post since my very first blog but things happen, IE; get run over by a bus that says it loves you and wants only the best for you and then runs over you and then when picking your self up off the ground you can see the writing on the back says family(still more on that to come one day I'm not over it), get a job, change jobs, and life. 

Today's blog is going to be two parts 1. Political 2. My life.

2. I am so content and pleased with my life right now. My wife and I are trying to get our stuff together when it comes to working out and what not and it is kicking my butt, yet  I love it. I signed up for the tough mudder race. Because that sounds like great fun....pssshhh anyway that is definitely going to happen so I have to start getting ready for it. My wife, Who from here on out will be referred to as "My Hero" is doing this thing like a boss. She is exercising and eating right but there is just want her to understand I only want her to do it for her. So she can be healthy and so we can have a long happy life together. Turns out I have an amendment to that statement. The Amendment - She also needs to learn that jogging is not an all out sprint but rather it is a run that is faster than a walk but slower than a sprint. I'm proud of "My Hero" and she is an amazing person.

1. Political

So here we go. How in the world do we look up and the people ,whom everyone that grew up with them knew were dumb asses, are running this country? To be president now you don't have to have an actual plan. It's just like running for class president, "I'm going to give everyone free lunch money and pay for your houses". We all know it can never happen but people want free stuff so they elect these clowns and lets not even talk about why in the world it is ok for all of the dead people to vote that do. On that point maybe the zombie apocalypse is coming or maybe our country is just run by a bunch of criminals. I digress here is the deal and this ties in to my modern day slavery rant I went on almost a year ago. If you tell people that they will never be completely satisfied and they will never be able to make their dreams come true but they will never have to be responsible for themselves or their family. Some of them will vote for you no matter what you actually stand for. 

Possible topics for next time; 

what happened to the friends you swore to always have and why do you have better ones now?, Life as a modern day Christian,  The bus that says it loves you and wants only the best for you then runs over you and then when picking your self up off the ground you can see the writing on the back says family or whatever else is on my mind. 

goodnight neverland

What do I know?

Last August I made a drastic decision that affected me and my wife in a way I will never be able to change. Looking back now I hate that I had to re learn something that I already knew. When I look back everything that happened starting in August wasn't about what was right for us, even though I tried to make it, it was about what made me feel better. I hate that so much. My wife is so amazing and yet I let her down by leading us down a crazy trail down to central Texas. When thanksgiving hit I was so relieved when we made the decision about coming back. I did not want everything to go the way it did but I am so happy it did. Since Annie and I have been home life has been amazing. Everything has not been easy but we have been happy. We are both on our second jobs since coming home and proud of it. The difference in now and in last fall is that last fall my concern was what I feel good about and now it is what We feel good about. We are connecting back with God  who we did not forget but we lost sight of. Without constantly seeking God life is horrible, even when everything you think you want is at your finger tips. Then when you get back to doing what is right, even though from the outside things look harder, life is so much better. There are so many feelings that I can't articulate even now six months after moving back home. The most important thing is that my wife is by my side and I love her with all of my heart and it is the two of us against the world. There is nothing in world that I can imagine that is better than one minute with Annie, and I get the rest of my life with her. Annie I love you and thank you for being you - Zach

Crazy turns

Do you or have you ever planned out your life, or even the next year? So have I and yet again the plan changes. I have started to realize a couple of things though; 1. As long as my wife is with me who cares, 2. Doing what you believe is right to God (supported by his word) trumps everything else. That is all for today.....goodnight Neverland.

Life is Crazy

So I woke up this morning looked at my beautiful wife and wondered, "why did she pick me?" My wife is an awesome lady who would try to move heaven and earth if I asked her to. Now I'm not a bad looking guy and I have some good qualities but why me. This girl is amazing! We have been married almost two years now and together for almost eight and still every time I see her I get butterflies in my stomach. My wife and I met in 7th grade and couldn't stand each other from the word go. We tolerated one another the times we had to be around each other throughout the years. Then when I asked her for her number our senior year of high school the crazy hooker gave it to me and then told me not to call. College happened and we moved away from one another yet through all of the trials we were able to stay together. Then my job at best buy happened and that almost caused it all to go down the drain. Yet she was still patient and we both realized love was all you really need to make anything work. Now coming upon 2yrs we just moved to Austin (our 3rd place to live) and moved in with my mom and Jamie until we can save some money and yet the whole time she is just amazing. I don't know what I would do with out her and she is my whole life. I thank God every day for her and I can not imagine a day with out her. She is the glue that holds me together and life without her is meaningless.

Is a Vote for a Democrat a Vote for Modern Slavery?

When a person votes for a Democrat in a national election are they supporting slavery? Yes. These voters may actually be slaves themselves and not even know it. What am I talking about I must be crazy. The majority of Democrat voters get some sort of help from the government. In ways such as; welfare, unemployment, disability, social security, medi-cade and medi care, housing assistance, income tax credit, and so on. Now all of these programs seem to be a good thing, yet they all lead to the same end. This end is dependence, dependence on the US government to do everything for you. Through using these programs there are a couple of things you can be sure of; you won't have to work too hard, you don't have to worry about a place to live, you don't have to worry about being able to eat, and you definitely don't have to worry about ever becoming wealthy or dependent upon yourself. The way to get all of these amazing benefits for free (because you pay no income tax) is to vote for a Democrat in the election. This Democrat will make sure and give you just enough of what you need so you will vote for them. They will give you these things and claim they are helping you while all the time the Democrats know that they are not only holding you down but they are securing future votes.