What do I know?

Last August I made a drastic decision that affected me and my wife in a way I will never be able to change. Looking back now I hate that I had to re learn something that I already knew. When I look back everything that happened starting in August wasn't about what was right for us, even though I tried to make it, it was about what made me feel better. I hate that so much. My wife is so amazing and yet I let her down by leading us down a crazy trail down to central Texas. When thanksgiving hit I was so relieved when we made the decision about coming back. I did not want everything to go the way it did but I am so happy it did. Since Annie and I have been home life has been amazing. Everything has not been easy but we have been happy. We are both on our second jobs since coming home and proud of it. The difference in now and in last fall is that last fall my concern was what I feel good about and now it is what We feel good about. We are connecting back with God  who we did not forget but we lost sight of. Without constantly seeking God life is horrible, even when everything you think you want is at your finger tips. Then when you get back to doing what is right, even though from the outside things look harder, life is so much better. There are so many feelings that I can't articulate even now six months after moving back home. The most important thing is that my wife is by my side and I love her with all of my heart and it is the two of us against the world. There is nothing in world that I can imagine that is better than one minute with Annie, and I get the rest of my life with her. Annie I love you and thank you for being you - Zach